Dateline: Tuesday 19th October 2021

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Recently I have been in a bit of a lull.  I have not felt much of anything to be perfectly honest, and one thing that is weighing me down is the situation regarding Alison's hip replacement. It is so hard to see someone that you love clearly in agony day on day on day!  The days turn into weeks and the weeks are turning into months.

So anyway I decided that the time had come to do something about it, to work on making me feel more like my normal self and work to lift the weight off my shoulders.  (note: Please don't for one minute think that I will be doing anything to jeopardise my marriage etc.)

As a result of the brainstorming that I did I arrived at a list of things that I could do to lighten the tunnel that I felt I was in and I came up with the basis of a plan to help me deal with the situation.

a)    return to nature / run free

b)    break the chain

c)    work towards a life less chaotic

d)    get back to the Status Quo (not the band)

e)    resist being ground down by life

f)     accept that it is ok to cry

g)    realise that it is not all grey - sometimes there is blue sky

h)    cut the crap - decide what really matters

i)     listen to my body's wisdom

j)     challenge the norm

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So far I have taken time out for me - have walked in nature, followed the coastal tracks.  I have done things for me that are helping to get a clearer perspective on things.

I have created a bit more order in my life - I am not yet out of the woods, but it is happening.

I know it is ok to cry - and yes I have!  It is also ok to scream and let the emotion out!

I have spent time with my camera / my guitar and that proves very therapeutic

I have made a decision to work on what really matters - there is no particular order here but the close family, Alison, Dawn, the Belgroves and I are those people, putting food on the table and keeping a roof over our heads - sod all else really matters when you get down to it!

If I feel tired now, I stop! I will sleep if I wish - and if people don't like it that is their problem NOT MINE!

and finally I am continually on the look out to see if there are better ways to be happier, more content etc.etc.

Always remember that "a frown turned upside down is a smile!"

Thank you for reading

DAve x